To the girl who was married at 22 and widowed at 31:
I forgive you.
◾️Strangers will seek you out. Some of them will cling to you, asking you not leave them lonely. They will want you to sit in misery with them because “now you understand that life isn’t fair”, like they’ve always “known”.
◾️Some of those closest to you will either turn their backs because their own pain is too hard to manage, or they will project their own hopelessness onto you.
“How will you ever get through this?”
“You will never have love like that again”
◾️Others will prey on you and your trusting, naive heart. 🚬
▫️Some… will stay. And they will show you more kindness than you’ve ever known. A type of giving that’s so beyond abundant… You HAVE to thank God.
And you will. Every day. After every beat down. Again and again. You will get up & choose hope, trust, and gratitude.
To the girl who married her 1st boyfriend & lost him over the phone, the one who had entire years of memories blown from her brain, has PTSD flashbacks; the one who went through an excruciating court case that physically aged her in a week’s time… the one who was verbally and physically abused by lovers; the one who went through the sickness of her children, alone, medical procedures, alone, the death of 3 grandparents and a close friend, alone…
I wish you knew that everything that you ever needed was in you, not other’s words, not in accolades or alcohol. You. 💥
For what it’s worth though, I forgive you.
And I love you 💕
Photo credit: c.2017 Six months in, wondering if it’s ok to dress sexy. I now know that there’s a time & a place for how we dress; that time is whenever and that place is wherever. I pay my bills. I manage my pain. I tuck my kids in bed at night. I cringe at this photo, but if you’re widowed (and still reading 😆) My hope is you give yourself permission to do what you want & not what you think you should be doing. No one should ever have to relinquish hope, lay down, & wait to die. You’re going to grieve anyways, so you might as well do it your way. 🌅🧡
I’m starting a podcast this year!
What should I talk about? Interview? I also need a name! Comment or DM me your questions/thoughts! 🎙🥰
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